I know why I can't stand to take a shower...I think anyways. I have bp2, bpd, ptsd, anxiety and depression. Even if I feel stable I still have a hard time getting in the shower! It is sooo frustrating cause I want a simple answer to why I am this way. It's overwhelming to think about washing my hair, my body and shaving. I should want to do these things but I can't seem to do it. I actually look forward to the days I don't have to shower. Seems so strange. I know that I'm always depressed and I have a dark cloud that follows me around every day. I'm so used to it that I don't mind it anymore. Meds only go so far. Mindfulness only goes do far. Therapy helps but nothing helps motivate me to take a dam shower! Does anyone else struggle with daily depression even tho yr medicated? Am I the only one? I doubt it. I.just don't want to feel so alone in this state. When I'm hypo it seems easy to shower. Like I feel as if I have so much to look forward to.that showering seems like the right thing to do. I miss those.hypo manic days when I was so incredibly motivated to do everything and anything! I used to workout 6 days a week. But then I used to put myself in reckless behavioral situations. That I don't miss. Sorry for the long post...I just needed to get this stuff off my chest. Thx for listening. :-)

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