I can sure relate to the manager thing, it's a tough job for many of us. Having to bear the load that employees and the corp put on our shoulders is hard. Relating to employees' needs and wants but having to take the corp stance can wear you down. A lot. Some people seem to be able to handle it better than others. When it got too much for me, I decided to throw the cards up in the air and see where they landed, I ended up with a different job which was more tolerable. Maybe you could keep being a manager with the same salary, but in a different place, it might be better. You do have the experience and your skills, forced though they may be, are no doubt of value to other organizations.

I'll also mention that I lost my 19 year old daughter a few years ago, it almost killed me. Well, it did kill me in a way. I imagine it would be even worse the other way around. Keep that in mind, the collateral damage from a loss like this is way more than we imagine, and our kids love us more than we imagine. I hate to use this phrase, but you do have to stick it out for them. But that doesn't mean you can't make changes to your life.

I sure hope you can get yourself out of that rut and I wish you all the best! And, btw, it's NOT your fault, it's a tough world and many of us have had tough lives, and that causes problems. I hope this helps a little, I'm new here and kind of nervous about saying the wrong thing.