I got the same creepy feeling as silent void as soon as I started reading you post. A more sensitive, more socially appropriate T would not have pushed you about this. I second the opinion of find another T, preferably female. I am very biased about male Ts and young female clients. I don't know how old you are, but it just makes me uneasy, especially when csa is involved. Its very unfair but it is one of my personal biases.