I opened up much more this week about how I feel about him. By the following ways:

-Sent an email, ended it by saying " we do love you don't hate us"
-He let's me borrow books, I borrowed "tales of love" by Julia kristevia.
-Told him I didn't want him to go away, but apologised for saying it.
-Said "I can't get you out of my head, I hate getting so obsessed with people".
-said "I hate it that your at work when your with me"

He responded to non of the above. Didn't say anything or if he did it was not directly related. Yes it's psychoanalysis. But I now feel utterly, utterly pathetic and like I should not have said anything. Fail. now I have 2 weeks to feel pathetic for. I feel pathetic posting this even.