Hi Neutrino: Well, as a world-class self-hater myself, I salute you! Yes, it's very hard to accomplish much of anything when you feel like a piece of dog poo. Did you know that you can't even use dog poo to fertilize vegetables? It has bacteria that can be transferred to the veges & that can infect humans... yuk!

I do hope that you get that new T you mentioned. This person should be able to help you stop being so hard on yourself. Anyway, no great pearls of wisdom here. I ust wanted to say hello from one self-hater to another.