I had been doing so damn well. It was amazing. Hadn't felt so good for years. Literally.

And now?

Honestly things were awesome.

Right now I feel like giving up. Again. I had the dreams last night. They told me enough. And today, I feel like I have done before when I've attempted.

And because I can feel it, I want to make it true.

I can't find the words to make this make sense.

I just can't be dealing with it.

I want to give up.

You know when you have all that you need to go through with it, but there is one little detail stopping you? It's like that.

I. Give. Up.