This was my first therapy experience. It lasted for 5 months. Yesterday she terminated me. Let me go back a little. I've had erotic transference for her for about 2 months now. I've told her about it as soon as I noticed it, and she said we would work through it. I've been getting better over the past 2 months, making progress with my initial problems that I came to therapy for in the first place, but these feelings weren't diminishing. We agreed that so long as they don't interfere with our treatment that we will keep working together. 2 weeks ago in our second to last session we made plans to go out and start doing exposure for my anxiety. We were supposed to start yesterday, but then this happened. I came in to session and said that I was feeling down for the past week, thinking about her all the time and that it was pretty bad. She started talking about the possibility of transferring me. I kept quiet because I thought that would probably be for the best. Midway through the session she said that I should think about it and how I don't have to decide right away. Not even 10 minutes after that she says that she is terminating me. It's as if she took advantage of my silence and wanted to see how far she could go. At that moment I woke up and realized what the hell just happened. I tried to talk her out of it, saying how this is just another bump in the road, and how therapy isn't supposed to be a one way road from negativity to positivity. She kept saying how her gut feeling is telling her that even though I can control the transference, in the long run I would be unable to continue making progress. I told her that when that time comes I would personally request an end to our therapy. She wouldn't listen to anything, and said that she has made her decision. This came out of nowhere. I even asked for one more session because I couldn't process this, and she refused. I stayed over 5 minutes, and at that point she told me that I need to pay up and leave because she had other clients waiting. When I went outside there was no one in the waiting room. I started laughing because of how ****ing stupid I felt. I truly love her, and even though she acted a bit unethical, I still can't make myself dislike her. I wish I could, but I can't. I seriously don't understand why I was terminated. If anything the transference was getting better, but of course there will be some bad weeks. What do you guys think?