hello there, ive got a question if anyone can help me understand my mothers postpartum a little better.

my mother gave birth to me when she was very young, fifteen to be exact. my father told me that after my birth she was severely depressed and for the first few months of my life had a hard time developing a relationship with me. for the first several weeks, it was difficult for her to even look at me.

i feel as though that never went away. i lived the rest of my childhood with her and am an adult now, but i feel like the whole time i was growing up, she had an aversion toward me and only fulfilled her "motherly obligations" when she absolutely had to.

i might be wrong, but has anyone here with postpartum depression found that it never went away?

are the negative feelings directed toward the child in specific?

is there anything i can do to help make it easy for her to accept me and interact with me in a healthy way?

any insight is greatly appreciated, thanks.