"My commitment to analysis (intermittent throughout, but no less intense than at the beginning), which through the person of the analyst carries me toward a focal point of power and knowledge--in a narcissistic fusion, an indispensable idealization given the weakness I experience as a premature and separate creature--is ultimately shaken by the discovery that the other is fleeing me, that I will never possess him or even touch him as my desires imagined him, ideally satisfying. What is more, this discovery reveals that I myself, at the deepest level of my wants and desires, am unsure, centerless, and divided. This does not eliminate my capacities for commitment and trust but makes them, literally and in no other way, playable (in the sense that a piece of music is playable)."

Julia Kristeva.