This is the first thread I have seen that touches on how I feel day to day.
I wouldn't say I'm obsessed with death rather than being aware of the fact that I am on a clock that is counting down and which highlights the futility of life itself.

I'm not suicidal, nor as far as I can tell do I have a mental illness of any kind, its just plain logic.

Life = temporary
Life = no purpose

I am an atheist so for me there is no higher God just existence here and now.

Therefore life = pointless.

As life is pointless there is no point in living it.
Without a purpose or point to something there is no reason to do it.

I also see other people who say grab life by the horns, find a passion, do what you love, make friends and family money etc the focus of your life....blah blah blah.

The only way I am going to get passionate about life is if technology manages to lift the death sentence over me by making me immortal in some capacity.

Then I would take an interest as I would have an infinite amount of time to understand and explore the environment maybe even coming up with the answer to the big question ie WHY?

Otherwise I'm going to take that 80 odd years people get and play some video games, drink beer, eat takeaways and try to escape the constant thought of the impending death sentence as much as possible.

In short, not scared, I'm just sick of living every day with my head stuck on the chopping block waiting for the axe to come down at some random moment..