It's very difficult to find motivation to move on by oneself...I know. What I found out is that often the sense of not being alone was a myth... and though I felt the "comfort" of having others support me, in reality I was alone!

So it's a mindset, I guess is what I'm saying. Usually when we go through something we don't have all our family and friends to talk to face to face 24/7...we really work through it ourselves and 'bounce' ideas and thoughts 'off' others...but the decisions are really our own anyway.

You can do this. Where you are 'at' in life is not where you will always be. Perhaps if you think of it as NOT permanent, but temporary, it will help you focus on your goal for the future....

I live with chronic pain...and have to push to do things I think I want to do. The pain and fatigue increase... sometimes I have to submit to tests that increase my pain or anxiety... but just like with the things I want to do... I KNOW THAT I CAN endure anything if I accept that it's temporary... I can wait it out (usually)... the recent bout of deep grieving for my service dog is an exception...

Break down your 6 months into smaller segments, with smaller goals for each week and each month. Trying to look at the whole 6 months and what you have to achieve is just overwhelming! Smaller goals/objectives will give you more successes in learning, and help to motivate you...

and remember, working hard this 6 months will pay off ...and it won't always be this hard. Push yourself. When the negative thoughts come, put them aside. Once a day take 5 or 10 minutes to actually think about the negative thoughts...then put them back on the shelf (or in a box, or away) and when they show up during the day say to yourself (out loud if you need to) "NO! I won't think that now, I'll think about that tomorrow as I planned."

Good wishes!