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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
My dad was extremely emotionally unavailable and is always right. In fact, even if you agree with him, he'll find a way to argue anyway sometimes.
The problem is that I don't immediately address the problem if the other person doesn't realize something is wrong. I guess that could be because I'm still trying to get them to like me or become more than just the girl on the side. I spent almost a whole night once trying really hard not to move and if I did, do so very carefully so as not to wake up the other person.
I would also expect someone to have opinions on what looks the best on me. I mean, that's human. I mean, I may not share my opinions, but then I also try not to inconvenience someone else by sharing my needs either, so that's not really a surprise.
So, I'd almost have to be with someone who's highly perceptive…although I've been told I'm pretty easy to figure out/read by some people. But part of this came from growing up…my mom just figured out what I needed/wanted without me saying anything.
That being said, I can communicate when given permission (i.e. someone asks me what's wrong etc.).
I would be completely fine with being treated badly if I could just be the only girl once…I'm not sure if I could trust someone who wasn't emotionally/psychologically abusive because then they're hiding something much much worse. At least with guys…sorry, I don't trust guys who aren't trying to hurt me in some way…whenever I do, I find out later that I shouldn't have trusted them in the first place.
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It seems you have quite a bit of insight into the issue. Although it looks like there is a dead-on connection between your dad and the men you talk about. It certainly sounds like you past really has burned you badly and I don't blame you for not trusting. The best predictor of what will happen is what has happened in the past so I agree that you need to be careful.
I wish I had more to offer other than to say, you deserve better and when you're ready, there's better out there for you.