I can totally relate. I feel head over heels for a teacher in highschool, so bad it made me question my sexuality. It's got better when i graduated and didn't see her everyday. Until I met my T. Who I fell absolutely in love with and wanted nothing but to live with her. I told her about my feelings and she said it was because i had anxiety that I needed comfort and a stable environment. When my anxiety got under control I found I didn't need or want her as much. It's still hard but i want to get better and will not let a little fondness get in the way. You should work toward your goal of getting tour anxiety under control. I'm sure you too will work through your confusion about your relationship with your T. I would advise you speak to her about your true feelings. I know that hard and embarrassing but it happens a lot and Ts know how to handle it properly. Good luck!