So, as most of you know, if you follow my sporadic writing, I sent a letter to x-pdoc Feb. 20th. It was to ask him to be my pdoc again. He has another week to respond but my guess is...if he hasn't yet and he hasn't...he won't.

I have been dealing quite well with this disappointment. My hope was he'd talk to my therapist and consider it but he hasn't even done that...and that's ok. I have mixed feelings about all of it but underneath it all there is this peace I never would have expected.

I have worked very hard over the last 4-5 months to get to this place and am still working really hard. I've done more work than expected in DBT and therapy. I've also worked really hard at getting and maintaining a much healthier diet...vegetarian...nearly vegan and minimal to no sugary or processed foods. It was an incredibly difficult change but it's paying off 100 fold.

I truly believe that all the work I have done has paid off incredibly in this situation and will continue to pay off in the future.

I'm not sure what the point of this is except to share. Everyone has their own path and I wish everyone the best on theirs.