I'm somehow venting right now.
I wish I could answear and read some post to left some of my disapointment go away and help someone, but now I'm too tired to even start reading someone else posts. So if you read mine I thank you.
There are many people in my life that are showing me by these days how they don't like me. It hurts, hurts being ignored, hurst knowing that people don't like you. The world is unfair and they left you asside. My medschool should be the best in my country even so, some classmates found out the exam one day before the evaluation, so they knew the question...this is pretty bad already, in lots of ways. But they kept it for them. So they knew and didn't tell almost anyone. I felt betrayed, men.
And then the people that should know me better than anyone else, to whom I told my secrets, the way I feel and I think, show me that they don't like me so much...what does it means? I trust them, and they show me that they came to the conclusion I'm not a good person. Adding to this the fact of my mother being allways insulting me. And the fact that the psichologist that was running me some test, and that I found to young and to "cool" for me to trust and be hoppen to her wants me to have an apointment with her...Just if I want or think that I need. Firts I think it will never work with her, second there isn't much things in my life holding me back so I don't have any to say, third my psychiastrist was thinking about some kind of therapy to me (that we will discuss later) and she have no idea about this, fourth I don't want my family to interfire in my dicisions and ask me questions about this (what they certainly will do) and the mail letter certainly with the apointment date will come to my house in the week days, when I'm in another city and house, and as I know my parents, they will open it without me being here, and they will ask me a bunch of questions about it. I'm getting kinda lost.