Thank you Shabur,

I do appreciate replying for the second time

Everything you said is TRUE, and I agree with your suggestions.

Actually, there is not any support group in our country, we are a middle eastern country, still we don't have the courage to discuss our problems in groups.

I do believe as well that it was the right decision not to call him, at least until he does (if he wishes to) or when I am ready to accept her in his life and act according to that.
Maybe I was a little selfish, and I should be happy that he found someone to love and share his heart with, but I can't help it, at least not at the present.

The fact that he didn't care to call or even send a message for five days makes me realize it was the right thing to do. As I was for sure causing too much pressure on him.

I did start to communicate with other people, actually I contacted an old friend of mine, I didn't see for years, he was glad to keep in touch with me, and I talk to my female friend daily, she knows I am not feeling well and she is trying her best to make me feel better.

I am concentrating on my study (I am back to school) and I'm graduating at the end of this semester. And taking courses for my future career.

I know things wont be easy, it's impossible to just ignore or try to forget years of close friendship in few days or even months. But the one must do what's right and what's best for that friend.

Wish me luck please