Exactly. I've been going a little ape**** like I do pretty much every year around this time, but didn't think it was BP-related until several of my friends and my husband said something like "You're ramping up." I don't FEEL like I'm ramping up, I'm just so stressed that I feel like running away and starting over again fresh someplace else. I won't, of course, but I do want to get a job that doesn't require more intellectual capacity than I have, I want a more affordable place to live and I want less hassle and a less-complicated life. I want an authentic life, and this ain't it. Maybe I am talking crazy, I don't know.