So I'm spiraling down now pretty quickly, but I see the doctor on Monday. It took me a while to get an appt and I have become unable to manage the complexities of my busy life I built while stable. I'm currently only on Lithium but went off it several months ago and only started back up when I really felt myself sliding, and Lithium has never been very good to lift my depression by itself.

I am seriously considering applying for SSDI, but the thought of meeting with people and filling out paperwork and following up on things seems ridiculously daunting right now. I wondered if anyone has advice or insight into this. I've read that you can still work pt here on another thread. I just see it as admitting defeat in a way, though. A huge part of my dealing effectively with this illness is that I get feeling good and I don't "need" my meds. I can handle it, why not??