First of all, thank you all for your support. A few of you are asking me to elaborate on some parts, so I'll try to do my best.

The transference was pretty bad, but she never mentioned that she wants to transfer me. She always said that it is always a possibility how she might, but that would be only when she believes that she could no longer help me, not because of me. 4 weeks ago she started giving me a depression test at the beginning of session to track my progress. The first week I had a score of 32 which is bad, second week i had 24, third i had 12, and then yesterday I had around 24 again. (Not sure exactly what number because she didn't have her laptop but it was the first week that I went back up, not down). She then asked me what caused the depression to get worse this week, and I told her that I was thinking about her a lot, and that I slept a lot during the day in order to block out the depression. She then started talking about the possibility of transferring. I asked about other possibilities and she said that we could go into exposure of intimacy where I would try to find a GF. I agreed, but she must have not believed me because she kept bringing up transference. She then asked me what I thought about transferring, and I said that my logical side says that it would probably be for the best. After that she gave me the termination paper that I would sign, but she said I could think about it, and don't have to decide right away. I didn't say anything for about 5 minutes and she just kept talking about transferring. She then made the decision by herself and said it would be for the best, and started writing up a referral for another therapist. That's when I woke up and said that I think this is a bad idea. I told her that I can keep my transference in check just like I've been doing, and how I just realized that I was just a client to her because she was really set on terminating me. I said that this made me realize how she only does whats best for me because its her job, not because she loves me. I said how that caring nature could easily be mistaken for love, and how I'm happy and relieved that wasn't the case. She agreed with me, but still wouldn't change her mind. At that point I asked if we could have one more session because I'd like to leave on a good note. She said no because she feels that we are leaving on a good note.

Now this is all very confusing to me. The most confusing thing though is that the session before yesterday's we talked about doing exposure, which we were supposed to start yesterday. If she was thinking of terminating me for a while, I don't think she would suggest starting exposure and moving forward. Something made her change her mind yesterday. Could it really be so simple that it was because I had a bad week, and my depression went up? Did she expect me to keep getting better without any spikes in depression anymore? I don't understand.