Thanks for your kind words. I have been dealing with this problem for many years. I often wonder what life is like on the other side. How it would feel to wake up one day, clear headed, to be able to think freely and to not have to worry about the day ahead. What will trigger it? Am I going to spend the entire day obsessing? Will I be able to resist it?

I often wonder, if I didnt have OCD, what could I have done in life? Could I have been much more? Have been held back because it's hard to move forward when spending so much time with ritual thoughts and trying to just be normal?

Although the subject of my dilema is considered taboo, and most people scoff and frown at the subject matter, just posting here and getting off my chest has given me a mild feeling of relief. I guess divulging and being able to talk about it openly, instead of keeping it bottled up, gives me a little bit of freedom.

Thank you, and thank PsychCentral for being here.