Do you ever find yourself becoming overwhelmed by the whole therapy process? I find I am in this battle with myself over saying I want to change and actually taking steps towards change.
It's a really hard place to be in, on the one hand I want to change because i have discovered what avoidance has stopped me from doing in my life, but then on the other hand everything is so unknown to me and I can't seem to trust it enough to just let go and see where it takes me.

This whole process has unravelled everything that I once believed in, I have so many regrets about my past choices. I thought I was making a the right choices, but I have found out that I wasn't, I was actually doing myself more harm then good. In realizing this I have in a way lost my ability to trust my own decisions, if I have made things worse for myself before, how can I now trust that I won't do the same in the future.

I just don't know whether I can handle it anymore, I just wish I could go to my sessions, talk about stuff and then she waves her magical wand and everything is fine. I didn't realise how hard therapy could be.