OMG I slept 17 hours, my head is so noisy today. It's all white noise. No voices or anything. Like a tv with all static, or a non existent radio station. Just went totally against my Pdoc's wishes and pounded a Monster Energy drink because I am so tired. I just want to sleep. Seroquel usually keeps everything in check, but the last 2 days it hasn't done a darn thing. Ever have one of those days where you just want to be completely left alone? I really don't want to be in the company of anyone. I hate feeling this way, and usually this leads into something more severe. I posted in this forum because the SZA forum doesn't have much traffic and I am sure a lot of you can relate to what is going on. Why am I this way? As a child and teen and even in my early to mid twenties I never had these issues. I was diagnosed when I was 29. I know it is not common to be diagnosed that late in life. Why am I experiencing this now?

I am so not used to it yet, and the meds for the most part work but the last few days there effective treatment has waned. I sit here on my computer knowing that I can find comfort posting on here and won't be judged. I posted on Facebook that my head was noisy today, and I don't get negative responses but then again I don't know why I post on there. It's been a good 5 months since my last episode and I've been feeling great for the most part, but since Thursday things have started to snowball. I had 4 fillings in my teeth and 1 extraction last week and was in a decent mood even after that.

I sit here staring at my computer listening to music hoping that it will kill the noise in my head. I also have my police scanner on listening to what is going on trying to keep my mind off what is going on. I'm not sure what kind of music I really want to listen too, but Alanis Morissette on the player now. I'm just struggling here. I have a med check with my PDoc on March 19th @845am.

Thank you for reading my rant, sorry it's kind of long.

-Mr. Pickle