It really wasn't that bad. I was a little worried for you, but I couldn't understand more than the title really. Please, don't use it as an excuse to beat yourself up more.

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...any-pills.html

I'm not sure it's healthy to keep delving deeper, but I'm putting up the link for you, because if it was me, I would want to know everything I possibly could that I forgot.