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Old Mar 15, 2014, 10:14 PM
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Originally Posted by newtus View Post
thanks. i used to make youtube videos about having sz. i had over a million views and over 300 daily subscribers. it got so popular a cousin found me on youtube. i deleted it all in a psychotic espisode and regret it. but...idk what to do anymore . if i should start it back up or not. idk.
I think u should, unless it's aggravates ur symptoms.

And btw everyone my son wasn't in that organization. I was from 19-26. I've been out quite awhile but it affected me on so many levels. And it's so frustrating bc ppl are still being hurt and this organization just covers it up. Also ppl aren't as supportive about the abuse I went through in it. It was institutional abuse and I really think unless you've been in it it's hard to understand. The woman making the documentary wants me in it bc my experience was so bad. But I don't feel comfortable doing it. I know it could help others maybe come forward but then u have to deal with the abusive ppl that will do anything to not have this exposed. With my bp and ptsd I don't think I can handle it. The woman making the documentary is so strong. U wouldn't believe the abuse she has/is dealing with getting this out. Anyway... And I've done major therapy on it. It's just still really upsetting when I know right now some young pretty girl or boy is being abused. They go after the young u see. Ok I should try and think about something else.
Thanks for this!
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