I have to say that at some point in my life many years ago I decided suicide was not an option. Within the past few months I have decided that self harm is not an option. I can see clearly the links to alcohol and FEELING that others have posted about. Our brains do amazing things to try to save our souls. But, I quess I am weighing in saying that alcohol is not a choice I want to make. I feel a great sadness as I see the scars on my body and think of the desperate woman who did that. I am so sad to think it gets that bad for her that she does that. But I am here and it won't happen again. I am working on health and understanding. Alcohol will just mess with the other drugs anyway. I am sad that any of us have ever needed to cause pain in order to live through our messed up lives. I'm working on dealing with less direct ways of self harm now. Not eating, risky behavior etc.