It's ok. I understand ur mixed feelings. He loves u greatly otherwise he would be gone by now. That's how I'd see it lovely. People with bpd can't control emotions correctly... Hmm maybe buy him the bpd survival guide? It's helping me immensely. Is he under therapy? If he takes offence just gently tell him ur worried for his well being. U sound like ur doing all u can, but sounds like he's on a low ATM. And when borderlines r on a low, it's a real low. xx feel free to pm me if u wish plenty of people here can help so u have come to right place but repost it in bpd bit of forum and ud prob get more response xxx