That's not you talking Gen, it's the depression.
I find you to be a kind reasonable person on these forums and you're important to me.

Give yourself some TLC....do something you love (for me it's a ridiculously long bath with a glass of wine) go online and play some mind-numbing games. Retail therapy.

Remember the butterfly effect. You are here for a reason that you're not allowed to know about.

Hugs, and keep venting...

~ Listen to the rain. Feel the touch of tears that fall, they won't fall forever. All things come, all things go. ~