I've really been struggling with this lately. It's for spiritual reasons (ones that everyone else thinks are irrational). I've just been discussing this with several people from my support group and tomorrow I will discuss it with my doctor. I just want someone to see my side and no one does. Ultimately it is our decision whether or not to take meds but it is very wise to talk it out and not make rash decisions if we can. That said, I still have not made my decision. Trying to be "rational" when you feel so passionately otherwise is difficult.