I have not gone off my meds, but I think about it a lot. I tried to wean myself off Saphris, but it triggered a depression which lasted 2 months. I'm just coming out of it now. My pdoc says stopping AP would be a "disaster." But I still want to. I like my other meds, but I'd love to be off AP. Ideally, I'd love to be off everything. I have a hard time accepting that I will be reliant on medications for ever, and I'm sure at some point I will try to get off them. I was unmedicated for years, and I did OK, so I wonder if the symptoms returning are relapse of illness or withdrawal from meds. I know logically that stopping meds is not recommended and can be dangerous, but living a flat existence is also dangerous in a different way. I'm struggling with this right now.