hallo i'm reaching out to people who know depression i have a life long depression the docs call it double depression at tho mo i am sinking -again i get so tired of this illness when i feel sort of well i start to make plans about returning to some form of work trouble is this process starts to spiral me down into depression this has been a pattern for so long friends tell me to stop even thinking about working and accept i'm ill but i find it so hard to accept it leaves me often thinking why me but then equally why not me ,i have read so much about depression and had so many experiences from my own but it seem as though depression wants to destroy me i have lots of people who love me its seems i just can't love and value myself i seem to equate my value with my being able to work does anyone have a similar problem and have they managed to overcome it