Hi sophiesmom!

I agree with the "knee-jerk" reaction. I beat myself up at the time because I didn't follow my first mind to just wait awhile longer before having the conversation. And I didn't bring it up again but she did.

I went to visit her this past weekend (which is why I haven't been online for a while) and I didn't feel uneasy at all thanks to her nonjudgement. We went on laughing and joking as if we didn't have a misunderstanding just a few days earlier. After a couple of days of me being with her she stated as-a-matter-of-factly "I haven't forgotten what we talked about". My heart sank. She further said that she wanted to wait until the right time to talk about it. By the time we did, I had my thoughts together and was prepared to clean up my mess. And lo and behold the misunderstanding was just that: a misunderstanding!

She thought I meant something very different than what I meant... thanks to my inability to communicate effectively. I was able to reassure her again that "our" past had finally past but there were other unresolved issues outside of our relationship that I believed was contributing to my woes of today. And she totally understood... and she wants to read my blog!

That's important to me in light of what she said to me last year when I apologized to her for dumping all of my troubles on her, she said "I'm just happy that you're opening up to me because there was a time when you didn't". I really have a great mom.

Thanks eveyone for your support. Without it my mind would have raced with negative thoughts and I don't think I would have been able to clear things up that well