Thanks dexter. I need help with all of this and I want to keep it on the down low since my mom lives with me and knows where I am and what I'm doing 24/7. I mentioned wanting to see a therapist and my mom said, is it because of me?....I don't want to go through anymore stuff than I need to, so seeking advise here seems the best option for me right now. I've mentioned to my mom that maybe she should talk to someone about her grief, life, etc. but she gets mad, defensive, and basically claims that she doesn't want the stigma of seeking professional help. So I have to focus on me in this arena.