So I have sort of a weird thing about smoking cigarettes. Sometimes if I feel like smashing my head against a wall because people are arguing and I can't take the yelling or other frusterations I might go smoke a cigarette instead. Or if I have suicidal ideation of some way to off myself I might go have a cigarette instead. So its like doing something harmful so I don't do something more harmful though I know smoking can be very damaging in the long run. Haven't been able to put this into words to mental health professionals or doctors. Last time I went to the doctor for a cold they talked to me about not smoking and free patches or gum or resources to quit...and I couldn't qutie express that part of the reason I am not intrested in those is they aren't harmful like cigarettes.

Any thoughts on this or am I just over-analyzing my smoking habit?