I understand.
Personally, I have MDD, so know that when I tell you you're not alone...I mean it.
But, please know, my friend, that you cannot live in the 'tomorrow' or the 'one month from now' because today's troubles are enough for today. Tomorrow will worry about itself. For right now, in this moment....you can do this. Because you're not alone.
This was the quote for today on my daily quote app:
"Breath. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure." ~Oprah Winfrey