Well I am doing and feeling horrible. I haven't been on my lamicital for about 3 weeks now because of it being on back order from the manufacture. I have been taking a lot more xanax to keep from going completely bat **** crazy. Living here in my parents house is getting worse and worse. I already have my two special needs kiddos that have both recently had med changes and are going through a lot and acting out a lot and then I also have my mother that points out everything I do wrong along with everything I have ever done wrong and when I say something to her about it she gets angry and tells me its my bad decisions that have put me in this situation and if I don't like it I can get out which I can't do financially. I have been in recovery for almost 9 years and I want to use so bad at this point in time I can almost taste it.