I have always been compliant with my meds. It just became a habit related to a compulsion of mine, like I used to have taking an assortment of vitamins every day in the past. The only times I have not been compliant is when I became unstable enough. I missed medications, appointments, not picking my daughter up at school until real late, and other "mindless" things. But then I recovered from that period in my life.

I have had jobs where I had to be accountable and fully functional 24/7 100% of the time. So this is another reason I kept taking my meds. Otherwise I would of lost my well paying job and the respect of other professionals in my career. So it was simply not worth the risk to me. There was too much to lose. But as it turned out, many years later, I started to have frequent episodes of instability. So now here I am on SSDI. Not the place I want to be.

Now I am on Lamictal with renewed hope. I wanna work and get on with my life! If I have to take meds to get my life together, then I will take meds for the rest of my life. This will be well worth it for me.

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