Pinksoil.
Wow, good insight and way to analyze your thinking patterns! We sound like we have the same brain.....you said so many of the words I've said to my t.

It's intense isn't it? The breaking down of the walls.....also kind of wonderful and liberating and frenetic......great session for you!

Keep that hammer out, and bang on those walls til they're down....you're courageous!!!!