I cut for 7 years, I'm now 20 and I still have scars that I have been trying to get rid of with every single home remedy and what may have you, no one knew but my boyfriend and he helped me through it. What I'm saying is, you need a support system, even if it's just one person, but someone you trust, that makes the difference. Also, those scars and marks are going to be there to remind you of what happened rather than trying to forget and move on and be happy. You have a lot of time to live, so try and be happy, yeah it's ok to remember what you went through and how it made you stronger, but is it really worth it. Here's a method I used when I quit, put an elastic band around your wrist and when you feel like you need to cut, just keep pulling the elastic back so it snaps against your skin. Just keep doing it until you feel better, that way you don't cut, but you still get the pain factor of it. I hope this helped. Feel better.