Oh Zinco....I can relate to some of what you say....the feeling of being useless and dependent. And effing angry at depression.....

I know you would prefer to work as would I, but I'm currently looking to volunteer somewhere to gain back the feeling of being useful...I don't know if you would consider it (I know it's hard to even step foot outside the house) But with your background and experience, I can see you doing a lot for Habitat for Humanity.

Hang in there.