Please be kind and gentle with me when we meet later this week. It's been three weeks and I am feeling confused, broken, alone and terribly afraid. So much has happened while you have been with your family. I wonder if there is much point in continuing this 'relationship' as it feels so fake now. I have realised I am just another client. It hurts. I want to be more but you are so professional and have such a great life outside of work that I realise it is so obvious that I mean nothing to you except being your client, paying £40 for you to listen to me talk about my pathetic existence.