Here are some encouraging words from Thunder Bow:

You are now doing some good things for yourself! I also see, that you are actully starting to feel better about yourself. Also your are allowing yourself to feel for the first time! This is a big change from where you once were emotionally. That is why you feel so depressed. It is like greiving over the loss of an old friend.

Now acknowledge your success. You are now, moving on to a better self and all the better feelings that go with that. No, you are not in a "hole" at all. You are moving and growing, and that is good.