Welcome. fgh I think you might want to post in the Personality Place forum instead. It isn't quite right ... as a personality 'disorder' but it won't be so bad with ideas of abuse like here might be.

Don't let some ppl scare you off. There are lots of very nice, safe ppl here, and DocJohn won't let anyone hurt anyone else.

Come back and post often.

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