I'm sorry you're experiencing the apathy! I used to love it when I was in high school because at least I didn't hate myself and want to die, but it does keep you stuck. That's how I ended up off meds two weeks ago...just didn't care about being well anymore, especially since the med wasn't working. I can't say it was a bad idea yet but I'm sure I'll regret it soon...but I still don't care!

As an aside, wearing long sleeves at work doesn't really matter, at least not at any of my jobs. My arms are pretty terribly scarred so I always wear long sleeves. I just say I'm always cold, which is true anyway. It sucks to have to walk from the building to my car when it's hot out but whatever. So don't worry about that.

And honestly I know it sucks to fail at something but you can always go back to school. I dropped out of my first semester at college after only six weeks because I was unable to do even one assignment due to paralyzingly anxiety/depression. I took two years off at went back when I was well. So don't think it's hopeless. Hell my mom is going to college for the first time at age 54.