Thanks Cherubbs. I honestly don't regret it. It was an amazing experience. And I really enjoy being with him. At least I don't think I regret it. I guess it's the part of me that feels like it's "sinful" and "wrong" - the Christian doctrine telling me that. Struggling with NOT feeling bad about it actually -- and thinking maybe there's something wrong with me that I don't feel bad about it. And what will T think that I don't regret it, have no intention to stop having sex with him...that SHE will be disappointed in me. I have a great need for approval...epsecially from those in "authority" over me. If that makes sense.