I was involved with a woman and we fell in love. Unfortunately I had dropped out of therapy and wasn't using any of the skills I learned there (why would I have done that when I was on top of the world?), so my symptoms got the best of me and my behavior went out of control.

I ruined the relationship. I have been brooding over her ever since (a few months ago). Even though in my high times I have been with other women.

Well, on another website (that we both visit), I mentioned her in a post. I mentioned how horrible I felt about everything, how since getting back into therapy and getting my meds readjusted I could clearly see how horrible I was, and how miserable I was knowing that she'd never speak to me again.

However, she messaged me today. Just to let me know that she doesn't hate me. Also to let me know that she has found someone else that she is in love with.

I can't do the sober thing today. Maybe next week.