I am convinced that meds are what I need. What meds I am reasonably sure on, but since I took so long to get back on them (went to the pdoc today got script, picking it up in an hour or so) that I'm stuck. I like this phys assistant I'm seeing. I felt comfortable with her immediately, which is saying something right now since I'm isolating and feeling alien.

I am going back on Wellbutrin along with the Lithium and I think I should feel this black cloud lifting in a few days. Going off meds is just non-acceptance of being defective for me. It's irrational. And all the posts about it being dangerous and detrimental to the well being of your kids are totally on point.