Update! MAY BE TRIGGERING

Had to go to the hospital last night around midnight for reopening my incision for the 2nd time. Was treated like someone had stabbed me even though it wasn't from someone else. I won't go into specifics but I had emergency surgery at 730 this morning. Have already met with the floor psychologist and supposed to be seeing a crisis therapist again probably tomorrow to figure out what to do next. I never ever meant for this to happen. My regular pcp called this morning to tell me to make an appointment with my doctor for this week. I'm so ashamed for what I did, and I absolutely hate how emergency rooms and the surgeon treating me like a criminal! Thank God I have had some really sweet nurses that are helping me, even uf they don't agree with what I did.