(((rouge))),

I am so sorry you had so many major things happen in this last year.

I am sorry about your pet, 14 years old, if it was a dog, that is a ripe old age for a dog. That isn't punishment, nor your fault either. You must have been an excellent caretaker for your pet for it to have a long life like that.

Fiance cheating? Hmmm, sounds like someone had self doubts, that is not your fault either.

It sounds like you are finding out how people can let you down, but that's not your fault either you know. Yes, it is very disappointing.

Ok, I know you are very depressed, but "you need to be there for you" right now. You need to dig deep and get this project done for work, that's you doing for you. You then have a week's vacation and that is when you can sink some, but not too far because you need to find a new therapist.

You have a job and a place to live, you did that, that is "yours" and while I know you are depressed and that's very hard (been there myself), you need to do whatever you need to do "for yourself".

You need to get mad, make a decision that you are not going to allow all this to get you down. As bad as all these things are?, they could really be much worse. You are still young, gamefully employed and you are going to sit down and decide that "you" are going to be a survivor. This is not the same as waking up one day and finding out your husband is a binge alcoholic, cheated on you with two other women and you don't even know if he is seeing someone right now, but you have a child to worry about, that was me, so I know all about "being depressed" and overwhelmed.

This is something you decide to do "the you for you" one day at a time, things "do" have a way of slowly improving, and you are not trapped like I was, you are not stuck in a challenging marriage, sometimes those who find things out before they get all wrapped up in a marriage are the ones that have a better chance of moving forward with less challenge. I am sure you are a good person, you deserve to be there for yourself too, life has a way of throwing some challenges we do not expect, it's not because we are unworthy either, bad things do happen to really good people.

((((Hugs)))))
OE