Ay Zinco,
Like my friends, I don't think you're having a pity party. You're just summing up your life's experiences and being open with your thoughts. I hate what depression has taken from me too. It crosses my mind daily. And, like you, I thank God for a supportive family or I'd be in quite a pickle. Even though I feel discouraged many times, I'm still fighting to get to a place where I can support myself again and not be dependent. Heck, I'm 42! I truly hope there's a silver lining coming soon for all of us.