Thanks, guys. Nice to be reminded that I'm not alone.

Stronger,
I don't have a therapist, anymore; we cancelled therapy (CBT, primarily for my OCD) about a month ago.

ickydog2006,
I honestly would feel really bad going to an AA meeting for something I don't have, regardless of the similarities. I like the idea of getting that sort of help, though, I just don't know if I need it, since I'm not actually doing anything.

I just feel, ... kind of agitated and alone, at the moment - like I want to do something, but I don't know what, ... sort of like restless, but worse, and mixed with weird feelings, like the urge to SH. It feels a little like I'm calmly losing the plot. My sleep has been really bad, lately, which probably adds to it all. I was up for about 24 hours, then slept for 5-6 hours, and here I am, once again, staying up all night, and it's gone 5am. I'm avoiding sleep. I'm being even more anti-social. I'm getting more depressed. I'm not eating properly. I don't feel all there.

I have so many regrets and things for which I'm forever beating myself up, and it just feels like it's all suffocating me. All the crap in the past, even things like ex-girlfriends, friends I used to have, my crazy mother, issues with my dad, family members that have died, and so on; it's just all there and I can't just pretend it isn't. Side question: is there some sort of disorder that causes someone to really struggle with "change"?

I isolate myself, emotionally and physically, so that I don't have to "connect" with people as much, or just interact with them, ... easy enough online, I suppose, to a point. I haven't even gone out in about a month - it feels like I'm an agoraphobic, sometimes. God knows what's going on with me. ¬_¬ Sick of it, though.